These poems were written by me describing what I was going through at various times of my life. Many hidden meanings are included. Feel free to try to make your own meaning out of them. Thank you.
Filling Inside
Moments between time and space
In a drawing they can't be traced
immobilized envisioning your face
Lips divine to the taste
The future is set ahead
For once I allow it to be led
Fear gone from my head
Filled with anticipation instead
Hidden through the shade of embers
As delicate as a feather
A new chapter my heart enters
there with you right in the center
Your words hold me high
Your touch makes me fly
At night you're on my mind
My love for you filling inside
Actions Rewind
Actions got us where we are today
Through suffering from our mistakes
There is no one to blame
With the pain we take
Our tears will be erased
Live by our hands of fate
Everything will be okay, one day
The trace of our faith cannot be misplaced
True and solid hope our minds contain
Guide yourself with your heart, not your shame
Live to live, not to die and decay
Alone Again
Alone Again
You made it end
Your reasoning stands
Alone in my den
Caged like an animal
Almost unforgivable
You're so unbelieveable
Almost nondurable
If I leave this cage
Leaving all this rage
Will I charge a gate
That's there to debate
Can I make it on my own
Left there to roam
Sitting as a drone
Ever so monotone
How can I be cursed
How can I be blessed
Anxious at first
Then later motionless
Lost and Found Captured Reality
I'm lost, I'm found
In your eyes, against the ground
Embedded you are, in my mind
Take a step, lost in time
Around you, it feels so right
With you, in my sight
In your eyes, I see gleaming
No insecurity, I hold my breathing
Beating heavy is my heart
From the happiness you have brought
I see you as an art
Intrigued, lost in thought
I'll hold you from your fears
Tell me how you feel
I'll take away those tears
Because baby you know this is real
Captured is your beauty
Locked in a box
Held up above me
With a key and a lock
Take everything you've known
Every dream you conceal
Every fantasy grown
I'll make it real
Conscience Feeling
She gleams in the darkest settings
She cares when there is no need
She reflects you with similarity
She holds you just to be close to you
She sees you as a magnet
She can't look away without attraction
You hold her as if she's rare
A cherished gem firmly with care
Time holds frozen
It feels meant to be
Instead of being chosen
The music continues over our breathing
Is there such a thing as sadness
When happiness overides your conscience
You wake up from this dream
It seemed so real
Everything I feel
Embedded in my intentions
Intentions never ending
As long as that dream
Lingers forever truly
That feeling of love
Will abide within me
Feeble Lights Awake And Subside
Entertain me like a strobe light
Control me like a street light
Set me to a certain time
Speed me up at night time
Hold me as your security
Treat me with purity
Look at me with curiosity
Leave with me from society
Embed me with your charm
I'll protect you from harm
I'll see you in my sights
As we turn off the lights
No darkness can hide
Everything I feel inside
As my heart, it subsides
My hopes held high
No longer will I try
To live with lies
The world can't be appeased
When someone as feeble as me
Holds the little things up high
And people who don't openly cry
Enemies they should be
But that's what's wrong with me
Take me away from this crime
Put me back in my prime
Myself and my love
Held up above
A rope you bind
In my mind
My Heart Pulsates
The lights start moving but we keep still
Even without you moving your looks could kill
In my arms I imagine you here
I tell myself there's nothing to fear
Even as you stand there motionless
I find myself staring in a trance
Over odds, I come over to where you stand
Baby won't you come and take my hand
Music blares, you stand next to me
My heart pulsates vigorously
My hand you take ever so suprisingly
Eyes lit up ever so widely
The lights keep moving but we keep still
Holding you so gives me a thrill
In these arms you stand here
Feelings without worries nor fear
Even as you stand there motionless
I find myself in your benevolence
Over odds, I'm here where you stand
Baby, I never want this to end
Music blares, you stand next to me
My heart pulsates vigorously
I kiss your lips ever so surprisingly
A moment ever so divinely
A Myth: Usually Simple, Unanswered, and Hiding Behind Complexity
I feel the need to prove myself
I always ask myself why
I can't answer my own question
No matter how much time passes by
People question what makes my very being
Like they need proof, an answer
Like I have to explain my breathing
My mind I wish I could transfer
A simple guy with complex thinking
A myth to the world
Rumors surrounding his image
None of them a reality
Only he can live it
Absorbed pain
He watches
He listens
Who is the real betrayer?
Betrayal by the witness
To depend is to trust
Responsible for your own actions
Life without lust
True to your affection
By the end of the day
Taken not afraid
Not ashamed
Without any trade
A ghost with this shame
A face with no name
A dangerous mind game
Living in a frame
Complex, nothing to explain
No words, no rest
A wild burning flame
My honor you contest
In my head everything is contained
Misery, Mystery, Life, and a Lesson Learned
Everything in this world
Constant with material
Consistent with mystery
Life with misery
Good with evil
Untamed spontaneity
Twisted inconsistent laws
Destiny is every flaw
Every mistake a reality
None can take your obscenity
None can shape your decency
Choice with continuity
A child, a flaw
A man, a lesson learned
Sensory to the heart
Without falling apart
Uncharted given abilities
Given not without consequences
Learn from your every action
Make true your intentions
Chains Of Death
Chains of death, I escape
I had no choice, I could not wait
Why can't you follow, why can't you understand
I'm lost tonight, In the sins of man
I observe you, I can't control you
I want to help you, not destroy you
Love like kin, ruined by sin
Two different roads, everything we chose
An unwanted ending, two different destinies
Once an ally, now an enemy
A Burden Revealed
My burden, revealed to you with trust
Simple is your answer, but yet impossible to fulfill
I wasn't asking for your advice, but for your comfort
You stabbed me in the back, announcing my burden
Was I not there, as a true friend
Did I ever deserve, to be betrayed like this
Another reality turned to illusion
Was I foolish to trust and care
Shaking with this feeling
Anger inflames my being
Someone else takes over
The opposite of my character
Forbidden angels calm my anger
But the damage has been dealt
No room for apology
No words taken back
Even those said out of character
Trust and care, I'm aware
Gone for now, and maybe forever
Who and I
I has a friend
Her name is Who
What and Why didnt know How
But How knew Who which she knew I
What asked why "who is who?"
The asked Me "Where is I?"
Me said "I is with who."
Nobody knew where or why.
Students Mind
Every time I try to think
The words wont come in mind
Even if i know the answer
I lose my remaining time
Every time I try to talk
The words wont come out
Like I have a problem
Like im spinning now
Every time I try to hear
There's so many distractions
When I try to answer back
There is no reaction
Every time I try to learn
It's like I haven't a clue
Like A wolf in the night
Staring at the moon
Reality Betrayed, Replaced By Isolation
Have you ever had a vivid dream
that turned into a horrid nightmare
waking from the dream
you found it was real.
Sometimes I don't know what is real
looking back at my memories
through the gaps and ghosts of my past.
Never once had bad intentions and yet
some of these ghosts,
myself seen as the most evil creation
or at the very least
stay away from me as if so were true.
Some memories I wish to erase.
If someone wants nothing to do with you,
if you want nothing to do with someone..
Does that nullify any positive memory?
Was any part of that dream a reality?
The heart conflicted by what it felt.
Reality betrayed, replaced by isolation.
